God help me write these words(Psalms)

God help me write these words I’ve been dealing with a lot lately and my grades aren’t where they need to and I really would like some help but I’m too scared to seek counseling so I ask classmates or my teachers too I’m still healing from the past and I’m trying to be a new creation because I’m still competitive trying to be the best trying to be the best version of myself but I’m not the best I’m not the biggest the fastest or the smartest so how could I be great at something I need Gods strength I need his power and I need his abilities to get through these classes and move on knowing I overcame hard situations I hope I did great so God can just tell me what a great job I’ve done as a faithful servant because even though I’m not the best God still chose me because he loved me and now I gotta love him back and others too so thank you for choosing me and just keep on doing great things. I haven’t lost yet and even when I lost I took it as a lesson and God used it as a testimony. But before you get a testimony you must pass some test I’m no good at test taking because of my autism my learning style requires practice before the test and when that hasn’t been met it’s kinda hard to understand. Some nights I stay up late listening to music , some times I’m finishing an assignment, but most times it’s because I’m stressed out and there’s too much on my mind too much on the line and it’s looking like a dark time for me. But I show up regardless and I keep doing my best and that’s all that should matter is work ethic. We should also ask the right people and sometimes asking for help is the hardest part because I’ve tried to do my assignments on my own and in the past it’s worked but now that classes are more advanced I can’t do it on my own so I need some help but outside of that I’m fine and it’s time to relieve the stress sometimes I listen to music, sometimes I go to the gym, and sometimes I talk to trusted people so that’s what I’ve been going through but at the same time it’s all for a reason. God created us with intention so all of it is to test us and strengthen our faith because the testing of faith produces perseverance and recently that’s how I’ve made it through is by remaining positive even when hard times come and that’s true peace. And to love is to show that we care for each other and we can pray for each other to hold each other accountable and become disciples. So I’m not talented because I’m the biggest the fastest or the smartest I’m talented because of my faith in God. I also have many talents and gifts and it’s about using it to spread a positive impact because it’s not just for us it’s for others too and our loved ones too. So I’m more than just stressing out I’m going through a season of pruning meaning the bad stuff will soon fall off and replace it with good stuff that only God can provide. So this is my message to those who’ve been going through so much and you don’t know why maybe it’s because God is making you stronger and able to overcome those things and that’s with his power and Holy Spirit so stay faithful to God because youre close to your victory.