12 am In dreams ✨️

Main theek hoon… bas bol deta hoon, Sach bolun toh main khud se bhi chhup rehta hoon… Logon ke saath hoon par lagta nahi, Main har jagah hoon… par kahin nahi rehta hoon… Jeene ka mann hai, par jee nahi paata, Sab kuch hai phir bhi kuch feel nahi aata… Tu hota toh shayad alag hota sab, Ab kuch bhi ho jaaye farq nahi padta… 🌙 VERSE 1 Mujhe logon se problem nahi hai, Bas unse expectations se darr lagta hai… Jab koi close aata hai zyada, Mujhe uska door jaana yaad aata hai… Isliye main pehle hi distance bana leta hoon, Taaki baad me hurt na ho… Main khud hi rishte halka rakhta hoon, Taaki tootne pe zyada dard na ho… Kuch log ab bhi hain life mein, Par main unhe apna keh nahi paata… Main unke saath hote hue bhi, Unke saath fully reh nahi paata… Main trust karna chahta hoon, Par past allow nahi karta… Aur main move on karna chahta hoon, Par dil wapas jaane se mana nahi karta… 🌑 VERSE 2 Mujhe samajhna ab mushkil ho gaya hai, Main khud se baat karta hoon par clear nahi hota… Main theek dikhne ki koshish karta hoon, Par andar kuch bhi stable nahi hota… Din bhar sab normal lagta hai, Jaise sab control me hai mere… Par jaise hi akela hota hoon, Main khud se hi dheere dheere ladta hoon… Main zyada react nahi karta ab, Na har baat pe feel karta hoon… Par iska matlab ye nahi theek hoon, Bas cheezein andar hi deal karta hoon… Kabhi lagta hai main change ho gaya hoon, Kabhi lagta hai bas thak gaya hoon… Main pehle jaisa banna bhi chahoon, Toh shayad ab ban nahi paunga… ⚫ VERSE 3 Kabhi lagta hai main bas chal raha hoon, Na rukne ka reason, na aage ka plan… Din nikal jaate hain bina notice kiye, Jaise main khud se hi anjaan… Main khud ko busy rakhta hoon jaan bujh ke, Taaki soch kam aaye dimaag me… Kyunki jab main ruk ke sochta hoon, Sab kuch heavy ho jaata hai ek hi raat me… Log kehte hain “tu strong ho gaya hai”, Par main strong nahi… bas chup ho gaya hoon… Jo cheezein pehle hurt karti thi, Ab unse thoda door ho gaya hoon… Main ab kisi cheez ko pakad ke nahi rakhta, Na logon ko, na baaton ko… Jo rehna chahta hai reh jaata hai, Jo jaana chahta hai… jaane deta hoon… 🌌 OUTRO Main theek hoon… yeh line ab aadat ban chuki hai… Aur sach? Sach bolne ka mann bhi nahi karta ab…