Question

My auditory hallucinations and I always questioned my life that I was liberated in 2020 on the night of Maha Shivratri. Which I realized after three years while high on tea. I assume I’m liberated from the endless cycle of birth, death and rebirth. Because a bunch of bel leaves fell down from a Shivling which I witnessed. Inside of the Shiv Shakti Temple. In Edmonton. Out of the over 100 devotees that attended that night to witness I was the only one. Plus I can’t be fake about it because then I can’t get grandiosity if incidents aren’t real in experience. What I write there always is more to the story that’s all. I was liberated by the Shivling that represents the no form God. In Hinduism called Brahm. The question arose that when I was already liberated. Why did my “divine mission” as a diagnosed schizophrenia patient occurred afterwards. To prioritize the Hindu religious scripture the Ramcharitmanas while competing with the Holy Quran and the Holy Bible. That was why a marigold flower fell down from the Ramcharitmanas on the same year Diwali. Again long story. Very realistic for me as a Lord Shiva Devotee. According to some sectors of Hinduism liberation meaning “moksha” is not the end but just a start. To devote my life to Gods work forever which I have accepted. I have put Hinduism to the number 1 position on planet earth.