About life and god

(1)Okay Yeah stop lying but I'm stop trying to be honest i will if i can but can't because my love is dying so stop being a better person to people how don't deserve it and don't even no it but act stupid because you don't (2)earn it. and god is the father of truth even if you don't look it is what it is and be a good man for them kids looking up starting to cry but to wick to believe that it's me trying to provide for them kids that i see dying of food and water god please forgive us for our sins father i no my mistakes but I'm to wick skip and sick to be me every day fighting storms to become a better man to them streets i see god opening my eyes and i believe in my lord and saviour because i need to be greatful of my life that I'm not in them streets of the devil thanks to our father in heaven maybe one day will i see lil bro win if I'm not dreaming sorry for all the times that i wanted to take my life for free something in mind but to hard to see having problems at home but it's fine with me remember me if you come as king ellesse seven letter brand for them streets thet we see that's fine remember all times that i smoked & drinked so happy that I'm done with this things if it wasn't for me then it wasn't for god to see but it's okay still searching for a better future but to many haters in the streets it's okay will you or not it's fine i still see that I'm good and healthy empty funny and cute girl never let go of me