Yellow soft voice

Still getting my voice prep because i know nobody’s going to listen to me every time i forget to stretch before i do anything people think it’s me that is lucky because they are just as good as def blaming my voice needs to be the hardest or some shit when they have become pretty much as good as thee def bcuz they do not listen if they think one day i get them to listen i end up becoming loud and they bring up me yelling at them just got them to believe i took a speech class because in thee end getting better from soft voice just gives you the hardest voice because i always end up becoming the one that gets called loud that one day they can listen but they want me believe in turning a little yellow because i got to much sun and thanks if you are even try to listen because it’s not easy to understand because i never got a answer right yet but I didn’t say join me and just agree to disagree because i don’t believe most of them i think i have a soft voice came from them using manners like i got told i have. when they ask when thee fuck did i ever get those? Because i think in their head they are just reminding me that all it takes one person to say something like excuse me i am def in thee left ear and than nobody wants to listens to me because i don’t even understand if it’s an answer i gave up. But i will get better thx anyone who tried to understand but i am sorry you shouldn’t want to have to take my job. I got this and i will get better at hardening my voice i just hope you all still remember not to take it seriously tho because i will still give answers i know you were better than believe i just ain’t even supposed to answer to anybody but i will let mumbles or squeaks out if I’m just their to free answers so sorry its too soft now but once i get it healthier or at least manageable to get my doctors to start listening to then I’ll start trying to learn what you all made cents out of learning i just now it’s a big payment plan to me and i just thank coronavirus for keeping me out of having to sit up in courthouses because i guess now i wanna i can soft voice answer to them that is where coronavirus i got has been mostly caught guilty of fucking getting in me and all the ppl that work their which reminds me i didn’t have to even go but you forgot to give me any symptoms so that virus is thee least of my worries sorry for ppl who keep dying from going to court when we all got lawyers that want that death from dates with thee judge. But yes i think my voice softens like whoever said that to me because now i’m inspired to get better voice and just keep getting everything in the next day better so i hope one day while not fully listening but at least believing in one day you all will hear what i was trying hear and i get louder than the beats unless i forgot too add those every events in every time then oh shit i forgot to remember just don’t even re-listen because it won’t make sense to anyone because it’s like stretching to me I don’t do that before i do anything and sometimes think they call me “your fine” those day to