goodbye

i put the barrel to my head and send a text to my auntie I'd be better off dead (Bang) The message' said Esperanza text me back saying that I'm non sense I hit her back auntie I think that I've fucking lost it Got some pills in my system and some liquor down my throat I'm not playing the victim, I hit the end of my road She trying call me now but I won't answer my phone Sweat running down my head, losing feeling in my toes Shaking from my nerves but I won't drop that gun Time to take my fucking life, I swear to got that I'm done Hand slipped and it answered the phone- I can hear it saying; "Please! Melinda don't go!" not you time to fucking leave, it's time to take a breath Melinda just breathe Five minutes away, can you please wait for me My mouths so numb, I can't say no words to her I know I'm selfish for dessert in her I don't know if it's worse for her or if it's worse for me I swear to God I'm fucking done