listen to this when I die part 1

[Intro] Yeah… This the letter… If you ever hear this… just listen… [Verse 1] Yeah this is the letter, when I die Just know I was hurting deep inside I was acting happy all this time Put a smile on my face, let it hide my mind I don’t know if you noticed, I was fading away Laughing with you in the night, crying late in the day Kept it all to myself, didn’t want y’all to see All the weight of the world kept crushing me [Verse 2] I been getting the stuff that hurt me the most Holding pain in my chest, yeah it turned me to a ghost To me, to everyone else, I looked alright But inside I was losing every single fight Yeah I played my role, I did it so well Even fooled myself like I’m not in hell Every “I’m okay” was a lie I told While my heart kept breaking and my soul went cold [Hook] That’s not goodbye, don’t remember me wrong Just play this back when you hear this song I just want y’all to have this piece So you know my pain, so my mind finds peace All my stuff goes to all of y’all Every memory, every rise and fall If I couldn’t stay, just understand I was fighting a war you ain’t see firsthand [Verse 3] I wish I could say that I tried my best But I’m tired of this weight sittin’ on my chest Tired of pretending like I’m okay When I’m really just drifting farther away If you’re hearing this, then I couldn’t stay But don’t blame yourselves, don’t carry that weight It was something inside I couldn’t fix Like I was stuck in a loop I couldn’t remix [Bridge] But if there’s a moment you think of me Don’t just think of the pain I couldn’t beat Think of the laughs, think of the days When I felt alive in a better way I was more than the hurt, more than the scars Even broken souls still carry stars [Outro] Yeah… this the letter when I die… But right now… I’m still here, still trying… Even if it don’t feel like it…