listen close auntie

[Intro] Yeah… Auntie… listen close… I just want you to know… [Verse 1] Yeah listen close, I just want you to know I been fighting all these demons on the low I might not be here—I been feelin’ that fear Like my soul checked out but my body still here And it ain’t you, nah, you did what you could You showed me love when nobody else would But it’s something in me I don’t understand Like I’m slippin’ through life, I can’t feel who I am [Verse 2] I don’t feel love, I feel cold in my chest Like a ghost in my soul, never really at rest Yeah I been dissociating from everything From my peers, from my world, from the life I’m in From my own reflection, I don’t know myself Touch my hand, feel numb like it’s someone else I’m mentally gone, like I faded away But I’m still waking up to the same damn day [Hook] I feel like a ghost, yeah I’m not really here Tryna scream out loud but it don’t come out clear Got this unsettling voice keep telling me lies Sayin’ I won’t last long, sayin’ this is goodbye But auntie hold on, I’m still fighting inside Even when it feel like I already died If I lose my way, just remember my name I was hurting deep but I ain’t you to blame [Verse 3] I’m sorry for the nights that I made you cry All the stress on your heart, all the reasons why You stayed solid when I couldn’t stand straight You gave me love even when I had hate If I ever leave, just know this truth You were the closest thing I had to proof That love was real, even when I was lost Even when my mind kept countin’ the cost [Verse 4] Take care of the boys, yeah watch them grow Tell ‘em I love ‘em more than they know Keep your head high, don’t let it break Even if my path took a wrong turn late But I’m still here right now, tryna find my way Even if my mind keep driftin’ away Tryna hold on, even when it’s hard Even when I’m feelin’ disconnected from my heart [Outro] Yeah auntie… if you hear this song… Just know I’m still fighting… even when I feel gone… I just want you to know… it ain’t you… It never was…