Back to my kids

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(Verse 1) Packed one bag, couple tears in my eyes Looking at my kids while I'm saying goodbye Trying to stay strong but it’s tearing my soul Cause a father supposed to never let go My sister in the car like “we’ll get through this” Her boyfriend driving steady on the freeway cruise Long road south with my thoughts going wild Thinking bout the times I should've been with my child I was chasing every high, every chemical escape While my babies growing up and I'm missing every day That guilt hit different when the silence get loud When you know deep down you ain't making them proud Pulled into treatment with a mind full of shame Like I'm losing who I was, tryna rebuild my name Looking in the mirror like “who you become?” Just a broken man trying to outrun the drugs (Hook – melodic Drake style) California nights, tryna find my way back Every tear that I cried put the truth on the track I was lost in the dark, I was numbing the pain Now I'm fighting every day just to break every chain Yeah I did wrong, I admit what I did But I'm changing who I am for the love of my kids Every step that I take got redemption inside I'm just trying to be the father they deserve in their life (Verse 2) First couple weeks man the detox was hell Cold sweats, nightmares, trapped in my cell Not a jail but it felt like a war in my brain Every second fighting urges like a hurricane Counselor said “look at pain in the face” Cause running from the truth keep you stuck in that place So I wrote letters home that my kids never knew About the father I could be if I finally pushed through I missed birthdays… missed games… missed laughs Missed bedtime stories and the homework math Every memory cut like a knife in the chest Cause the drugs had me gone when they needed me best But every sunrise I was taking it slow Learning how to live without the smoke or the blow Started feeling something real in my chest again Like maybe this broken road got a blessing in the end (Hook – melodic) California nights, tryna find my way back Every tear that I cried put the truth on the track I was lost in the dark, I was numbing the pain Now I'm fighting every day just to break every chain Yeah I did wrong, I admit what I did But I'm changing who I am for the love of my kids Every step that I take got redemption inside I'm just trying to be the father they deserve in their life (Verse 3 – redemption) Now I'm sober when the morning sun hit my face No more running from the man in that mirror's place Every call with my kids got me smiling again Like I'm finally becoming who I should've been My sister told me “I knew you had this fight” Her boyfriend said “you finally see the light” And I'm grateful for the road even though it was rough Cause it taught me how to live when enough is enough Now I'm present, every second that they in my life No more disappearing into darkness at night Every laugh from my kids feel like heaven to me Cause addiction almost took everything I could be But I'm still here breathing and I'm changing the page From a father in addiction to a father engaged And if they ever hear this song when they older one day I hope they know their dad fought his demons away (Outro – emotional melodic) Yeah… California saved a life that was fading away Now I'm coming back home and I'm here to stay No more ghosts in my past, no more running from truth I'm just living every day for the love of my youth For my kids… I'm finally the father I should've been. ❤️ If you want, I can also tighten this to fit an exact Drake-style structure (like 70–75 BPM with a singing hook) so it would sound even more like a real Drake record.

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