depressed

I'm depressed Up all night i had no rest keeping me a shape They give me the meds that I can take Never o d I can kill myself Is it just me or my mental health I can see people telling me to stop The friends I used to have , but they're lost I'm praying , so I can get through this If I keep going and going, it will be a risk Beating Myself down like there's nothing left Struggling to get up , but i'm failing the test I missed all of my old friends.They were so good to me the new friends that I have, they don't even understood me I'm trapped in a maze , I can't find my way I got nothing to do.All I can do is just pray I don't miss my past and it feels like i'm dying When i mess up I can't say that i'm trying Struggling to be brave , but I have anxiety This isn't fiction, this is reality.