Pain in it 🎨 Part 2

Im taking off layers covered my babies with my coat Ts pierced through my soul my 3 year olds having to sleep out in the cold I gave them my coat but they was still froze Then I bowed my head down & let my tears hit the ground I prayed in my head God please help Then an angel appeared & let us in his home How are stranger help me before my own fam I just thank God that I know who I am His daughter because he saved me when I need him most I give all the glory to God im not one to boast. I dont ever want my daughters to be homeless. So I gotta grind until im boneless Im so stressed that im out of breath Worrying put me in cardiac arrest I was in ICU on a breath machine My babies in emergency room with me My babies fell asleep in the chair Then the doctor asked who can come get her You know it wasnt my sister She didnt even make sure we was safe Thank God babydady came to the scene The first time I been away from my babies I had no choice my health was down he tried to take me Doordashing all day long just to feed my home Buying food juice & diapers all on my own Then I had to get a job with no babysitter daycare aint free had to take the babies with her Babies in the car while im at an interview Man ts will do some shit to you I dont been through a lot of shit Fucks with my head this aint even half of it. A lot of people cant relate single mother two kids working through the pain Twin toddlers where's the father hes playing in the game Ts made me stronger I had to be an independent I always been a loner Running out of gas babies in the car car broke down i pray to God let it start Yeah I got a heart I won't let him starve I was dishing out money like i was a star But I aint have it like that I just have a selfless heart Have you ever been stabbed in the back by your own fam ? It made me stronger stronger than what I am I had to be independent thats who I am my friends wanna come back & mend it thats on them 2xs aint got a dollar in my pocket cant even buy a soda damn this world colder than North Dakota 2xs Im working day n night Im working overnights but im still broke ITs gotta be a damn joke Picking up the pen i put my pain in it Picking up the pen i aint painting Waiting on a nigga i aint waiting in Im chasing after money like im skating He aint about his money i cant take him Fuck around & leave him at the days Inn Im the girl of his dreams got him gazing