Escape My Feeli (15:19)

Got you. I’ll keep it simple, deep, no hook, straight from the chest. I wake up heavy, another day on my back World don’t slow down, it just tells me “adapt” Bills on the table, prayers in my lap I ain’t rich in my pockets, but I’m rich in the fact That Jesus love me when I don’t love myself When my mirror look back and I’m somebody else When I promise I’m done, then I fall again He don’t turn His face, He just calls me “friend” I been trying to work with these hands full of scars Every job I get feel like it’s too damn hard They don’t see the fight just to show up on time They don’t see the war going on in my mind I ask God, “Why I gotta prove I’m okay?” Why healing feel slow, why the rent due today? He whisper real quiet, “Just take this step” I fall to my knees, He give me breath I was stuck in addictions that lied to my face Said “I got you,” then it put me in place Chains on my soul, withdrawals in my bones Calling my mom like “I don’t wanna be alone” Missing my family, missing my brother Missing them nights when we laughed with each other Now silence loud, got an empty chair But I feel Christ sitting with me right there He saw me relapse, saw me ashamed Saw me pray prayers I couldn’t even explain Saw me cry in the dark, mad at life Still died for me, still paid that price I ain’t holy, I ain’t perfect at all I trip on my words, I stumblez when I fall But grace don’t run out when I mess it up That’s the kind of love I ain’t never had once When I can’t forgive me, He already did When I feel like a burden, He call me His kid When the job say “no” and the doors all shut He remind me real slow, “Man, trust Me, trust” Recovery lonely, nights feel long Only thing holding me is a half-sung song I don’t sing it loud, I barely speak Just “Jesus help me” every week Some days I’m strong, some days I shake Some days I pray, some days I ache But every time I thought I was done He carried me when I couldn’t run So I walk through pain with my head still bowed Not ’cause I’m weak, but I’m not that proud I know who saved me, I know who stayed When everybody else slowly faded away If tomorrow hurt, I’ll still believe If today break me, I’ll still breathe ’Cause Jesus love me, scars and all And that’s why I get back up when I fall If you want it even more stripped down, darker, or more street-real, say the word. I’m right here with you 🤍