detachment issues

detachment issues from when I found out you left me back then left your child now I struggle with trauma you gave me to your cousin your best friend you where 16 she was younger now I look back thankful I had two mothers you did what u could do at that point but keep me and I wondered how a mother could let go of something so precious it really got me so fucked up I wanted to be a better mother I had a lot of kids with no support I wonder if you felt that way but I did it up until now even hustled to make ends meet..without a father there grew up different wasn't ready for the hood statistics they call me green I'm from a rich city ran away to the hood just to love you and see if you loved me too instead you didn't take care of me but taught me a valuable lesson love I'd different for everybody I couldn't have been a better daughter if you didn't leave me. I feel bad for all my adopted mother tried to teach me now I ran away from good to the bad you didn't give me any clothes or draws so at 17 I had to dance in da strip club where I was drugged. learned lesson... (Verse 1) Late nights, shadows creep, mind’s a prison cell, Thoughts echo loud, but I’m trapped in my own hell, Heart heavy, memories flood like a broken dam, Trust shattered, like glass, can’t hold my fam. (Verse 2) Detachment issues, I’m lost in the abyss, Used to feel the warmth, now it’s just a cold kiss, Ghosts of the past linger, haunt me in the dark, Every face I see, just a fading spark. (Verse 3) Walls built high, can’t let nobody in, Love’s a game of chess, but I don’t wanna win, Scars run deep, like ink on my skin, Can’t escape the pain, but I wear it like a grin. (Verse 4) Trust is a luxury, I can’t afford to spend, Searching for a way out, but I don’t know the end, Detachment’s my armor, but it’s weighing me down, In this city of lost souls, I’m still wearing a crown.