No Form

In Hinduism flower falling down from in front of the deities idols or pictures are considered a blessings, presence and approval from the deity to acknowledge the devotees devotion. My auditory hallucinations always bugged me that my “Divine Mission” as a diagnosed schizophrenic brought Hinduism to the number 1 ranking position as a religion. God should have appeared in front of me according to my auditory hallucinations. A marigold flower falling down from the Ramcharitmanas on Diwali in 2022 lacks intensity. For a long time I believed my multiple voices religiously. One day to find out the religious scripture Ramcharitmanas. Which was used during my “Divine Mission”. Could only have dropped down a marigold flower on the most auspicious day of Diwali at most for me because the Hindu religious scripture the Ramcharitmanas has NO form!