Still Here

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Still Here Intro To my kids… This ain’t a diss. This ain’t a plea. This is the truth—finally. Verse 1 Daddy sittin here, mind locked in a cage, Years of quiet nights, whole lotta bottled rage, Feel like my kids bein held by a grip called control, She won’t let that shit go, tryna own my soul. My past wasn’t a show, wasn’t scripted or fake, That shit was real trauma, real scars at stake, My father held steel under my chin as a kid, “Don’t worry, B, I’m pretendin,” yeah… that’s what he said. Father, okay—guess that’s normal to you, So I learned how to smile while my insides were bruised, Used drugs to bury pain, shame deep in my skin, Now I quit drugs to show you the strength I’m in. But I still stand here, askin my blood for a light, Brother, sister, smoke one for me tonight, Not for fun, not a stain, not blood on the rain, Just pain—same reason, different lane. Hook I’m still here, tryin to let it all go, Truth in my voice, not a front for a show, They can lie on my name, try to bury my role, But a father don’t quit—that’s all you should know. I’m still here, sober heart, open wounds, Day one-oh-eight, yeah, I chose you, If this world get loud and the truth feel slow, Just know your dad never let you go. Verse 2 Rain ain’t stopped, heart breaks in the cold, She really sayin I stalk my kids—story gettin old, All ‘cause the man that’s there now can’t see his own, So they flip that frustration and paint me the ghost. I appreciate support, but not if it’s fake, Not if you clap for the lie while my name gettin dragged in the dirt for your sake, My intentions are this—tell the story straight, Hope the truth get enough attention to break the gate. High school me, detention, in-school suspension, They fuckin knew I didn’t wanna be there—no direction, Only thing that stood out, no exaggeration, The school tried protectin me from my situation. Bell rang, I ran home hopin for numb, Prayin mom and dad had coke or oxy to run, Turns out I was just like him, avoidin my pain, Runnin from problems instead of standin in rain. Hook I’m still here, tryin to let it all go, Truth over comfort, I’m done with the show, They confuse my fight with obsession I know, But love look different when a father’s broke. I’m still here, sober breath, steady pace, Meditation over pills just to quiet my brain, If they tell you I vanished or chose my own road, Just know I stayed standin when it hurt the most. Verse 3 Now I stand here better—sober, clear-eyed, No demons in bottles, just breath and my mind, Meditations replace what the meds used to do, Cocaine had dominion, now discipline do. Finally relocated, had to change my surroundings, Just me and a broken heart still poundin, Salvation ain’t instant, it’s daily restraint, Choosin not to be him every time that I wake. Flip the script now, pockets finally on swole, Stackin check after check, yeah, I’m takin control, Never the less, money ain’t savin my soul, But stability help when you diggin from holes. My will power godlike compared to before, Used to be a pro at the nod like—woah, Now I’m still here, speakin truth in this flow, Tryin to let it all go… still here though. Outro If you hear this someday… And you wonder who your father really was This is him. Still here Daddy never disappeared

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