prayers for my sin

yeah… turn the lights low. [Verse 1] I been talkin’ to my shadow, it don’t ever talk back Room full of people but my heart still off track Mama said “be strong,” I tried, I swear I tried But strength feel like a lie when you’re dead inside I got dreams on the shelf collectin’ dust and pain Every smile I wear just hide another chain Friends say “you good?” I say “yeah” with a grin Truth is I been losin’ wars I never let begin Nights long, thoughts loud, I don’t sleep much Memories hit harder than a closed fist punch I replay every “what if,” every door I ain’t choose Feel like life a game and I keep learnin’ to lose [Hook] If I cry in the dark, would the stars even care? If I scream to the sky, would it echo my prayer? I been carryin’ hurt that I never could share Got a heart full of love and nobody there [Verse 2] I miss the old me, before the scars and regret Before every promise was a broken cassette I loved too deep, yeah I bled for a few They left with my trust like it’s nothin’ to do I forgive but I don’t forget the way it felt When I needed a hand, I just talked to myself Got mirrors in my crib but I don’t like the view See a stranger in my face askin’ “what happened to you?” Daddy wasn’t home, so I learned how to cope Built a castle outta pain, called that sh*t hope Every loss taught me lessons I ain’t wanna learn Now my chest stay cold but my mind always burn [Hook] If I cry in the dark, would the stars even care? If I scream to the sky, would it echo my prayer? I been carryin’ hurt that I never could share Got a heart full of love and nobody there [Bridge] Sometimes I think disappearin’ might be peace But I stay for the people who’d break if I leave So I smile through storms, let the rain hit my face Tryna outrun the past but it keepin’ my pace [Outro] If you hear this and feel it, you not alone Every tear you hide got a similar tone We all just survivin’, tryin’ to heal somehow If you cry to this song… yeah… me too, right now.