escape my feelings

Escape my feelings the hardest yes the hardest ever burnt right through my chest heart aching heart bleeding torn right out right out right out right out heart torn right out stomped on thrown away never ever to see again the ache inside the pain it sliced wide cut deep everytime I tried to deal with the shock the devastation the trauma the horror the distubence in my heart my mind my soul my brain there's only so much our body can take b4 it shuts of cuts of shuts down now numb feeling gone the smell no emotion no nothing jst thoughts upon thoughts always tryna work it out in my head my head my head over load never switched off never new how jst cudnt all I wanted was to work it out to understand all I wanted was the answer to my question y o y o y did u kill him my little brother to young to die jst 7 yrs old wen u tuck his life u tuck mine too n my mums my sisters his dad's n his grandparents n his other sisters heart n life gone destroyed n u ur still here ur still alive rotting in prison I hope I hope u die I hope u cry every night n tat my brother haunts ur dreams ur thoughts for the rest ov ur life but I do forgive u though for God tort me the importance ov forgiveness n tats y I forgive you but I cn never forget I cnt take the look ov devastion up off my familys face it's like it's frozen in place we're all still dead walking zombies the walking dead u jst cnt c it bcoz we don't look it but inside we're tortured wounded heartbroken n suffering u didn't jst tale my brothers like u tuck us all out our intire family but u will die a painful death n u will reap wot u sow in the hell fire lake its wot u deserve u cowered u child killer u murderer u pedo u no u r n so does everyone else it was written in the papers about u it was all over the news its nothing secret it's nothing hidden its all about u the full facts n truth on the telly on the news child pedophile murderer killed a seven Yr old