sad rap instrumental:

sad rap instrumental: [Verse 1] Staring at the ceiling, three AM, I'm wide awake Pills on the nightstand, wondering which ones I should take For the pain, not to numb it, just to make it through the day Lost my faith in people, lost my faith in finding ways Out of this darkness that's been creeping since my youth They say that time heals everything, but that's so far from truth I wear a smile like armor when I'm breaking inside Heart full of scars and secrets that I'm trying to hide Memories haunt me like ghosts up in my mental Every loss I ever took, man, it's been detrimental To my soul, to my growth, to the person I could be But I'm drowning in regret and these anxieties won't leave So I write until my hand hurts, bleed these words onto the page Turn my trauma into art, turn my sorrow into sage Advice for those who feel it, know you're not alone tonight We all got demons in our head, we all got battles we still fight [Verse 2] They say follow your dreams, but what if nightmares all you see? What if every door you open just reveals captivity? I've been running from myself, but I keep ending up behind 'Cause you can't escape your shadow when it's living in your mind Relationships are casualties, I push away the ones I love Convinced that I'm not worthy of the blessings from above Self-sabotage my specialty, I'm gifted at destruction Building bridges just to burn them, that's my only real function Mama crying 'cause her son ain't smiled in years Daddy disappointed that his boy confirmed his fears Friends are fading slowly, can't maintain when you're depressed Every text goes unanswered 'cause I'm too tired to address The questions, the concern, the "how you been?" that I can't answer 'Cause honestly I'm dying slow, my mind is full of cancer Thoughts that eat away at peace, corrode my will to carry on But somehow I still wake up every morning, still hold on [Outro] So maybe there's a reason, maybe purpose in this pain Maybe sunshine's sweeter when you've danced so long in rain Maybe these chains we're breaking are the ones we made ourselves And freedom's just accepting all the cards that we've been dealt For just one day... for just one day...