Ain't Shit New

ain't shit new,nah its the same pain, different day still tryna smile thru the blood in my brain woke up wit a blade where my heart supposed to be hurt don't fade,it just lay in the soul of me same text,same lies like i cant read swear they love you then dip, thats routine i be quiet but my mind is full of war sounds sleep wit demons that laugh when i fall down fake love?you can keep that,i need space every hug feelin cold like a grave place ain't nothin new, they break then bounce i bleed, they count my pain like amounts tired eyes,fake friends, whats trust? even prayers feel like dust in the gust tryna heal but i crash in the nighttime my own family lookin at me like a crime they don't get it so i keep shit tucked smile wide but inside i'm fucked up drill beats but my tears hit harda scars deep, I'm my own damn matar they say "don't cry" but I'm past feelin talk nice but they gaslight the realest i break down in the shower so they cant hear i laugh loud in the mirror just to mask fear why i always gotta be the strong one? why love always feel like a loaded gun? ain't nothin new, they lie then ghost i love hard, they just do the most tired eyes,fake friends, whats trust? even prayers feel like dust in the gust ain't shit new its just pain wit a fresh face tryna fight in a world that don't feel safe.