stand myself

i cant stand mysel f wish i could change the person i is gotta take a quiz to see if i pass pergatory and why does it seem like everyone else gets the glory i miss my tori and i have a hella a story to tell but yet im always going to jail and people always say i yell and i feel like my life was cursed and will it get better or worse will i be able to stride the waves of satans attacks and racks of bills pile high and you ask got why me and contemplate suicide and theive to watch myself bleed till im bone dry and everyday another something has to make me cry and again i want to die i cant stand myself wish i could change the person i is cant stand myself wish i could die i cant stand myself can i escape my thoughts even just for a second shit aint plesent go smoke some wax hit the pipe and engulf my whole bein into the high to get away from all the pain i can drive myself insane and please dont blame me anymore i hate myself to so take a breathe take a few count to 10 will i ever win cant win for losing i vant stand myself