with him

Yeah... It's hard to love when you lived through war But he got me thinkin’ maybe I ain't broken no more I’m still wild, still lost… But with him, I feel like maybe I could make it... maybe --- (Verse 1) Look— I been sleepin’ with demons, dancin' with pain Cold nights, just me and the rain Trust? Nah, that died back in '09 When love turned to lies and he crossed that line So I built these walls, brick by brick Heart iced out, tongue too slick Shots to the dome, numb what I feel Fast life, slow death, keepin' it real Then you— Pulled up like you knew the storm Eyes like you seen all the ways I was torn Didn’t flinch when I showed you the ugly Didn’t run when I told you, “Don’t love me” I’m poison, baby, I said it loud But you stayed, and I’m wonderin’ how We get high, we sin, we fall But damn… you the only one I call --- (Hook – soulful, like a 2Pac hook with layered vocals) I’m a rider, but I break things too Got a past full of pain, but I see you true We get lost in the smoke, in the drugs, in the night But when I’m with you, somethin’ feel right I ain’t perfect, I’m barely holdin’ But you my peace when the world stop foldin’ You my war, you my truth, you my sin If I fall again… let it be with him --- (Verse 2) Look— I been runnin' with the wolves since a youngin' Heart cold, mind sharp, always gunnin' I seen love turn sweet girls to ghosts Seen dreams die slow from too many toasts Me? I’m the queen of almost made it Almost clean, almost faded Still party ‘til the sunrise blind Tryna kill the parts of me I can't find But you? You roll with me through the madness Light me up even when I’m at my baddest Told me I’m more than the bottle I grip More than the nights that I beg for a fix We both broken, yeah, that's fact But maybe two wrongs can still fight back We in the dirt, but we grow like roses Holdin’ hands while the whole world closes --- (Hook – repeat) I’m a rider, but I break things too Got a past full of pain, but I see you true We get lost in the smoke, in the drugs, in the night But when I’m with you, somethin’ feel right I ain’t perfect, I’m barely holdin’ But you my peace when the world stop foldin’ You my war, you my truth, you my sin If I fall again… let it be with him --- (Outro – soft, reflective) And maybe we ain't meant for the white fence life But you my chaos, my calm, my fight If love kill me, let it be slow With your name on my lips, and nowhere to go