It’s not as easy as it looks

It’s not as easy as it looks It’s not as easy as it looks Tryna control myself Every day that I wake up Feels like I been through hell pop another pill I might as well Hit the dab I might as well Was doing good until I fell Back into addiction I’m really afflicted Battling against myself Worried bout my mental health Suicidal thoughts Pistol on the shelf End it all I might as well Because I don’t cope well Reclusive I can’t come outta my shell But I can’t quit Even though I’m trying It’s too damn hard I feel like dying Trying my best not to give in To my inhibitions And my intuitions telling me to stop Struggling against it Knowing that I must come out on top Fienin for the drugs and the vape Gotta put em down today It’s a heavy burden but addiction is the price you pay For giving in to temptation Feeling desperation The weight of need And all my want for some nicotine It’s not as easy as it looks Tryna control myself Every day that I wake up Feels like I been through hell pop another pill I might as well Hit the dab I might as well Was doing good until I fell Back into addiction I’m really afflicted Battling against myself Worried bout my mental health Suicidal thoughts Pistol on the shelf End it all I might as well Because I don’t cope well Reclusive I can’t come outta my shell But I can’t quit Even though I’m trying It’s too damn hard I feel like dying Trying my best not to give in To my inhibitions And my intuitions telling me to stop Struggling against it Knowing that I must come out on top Fienin for the drugs and the vape Gotta put em down today It’s a heavy burden but addiction is the price you pay For giving in to temptation Feeling desperation The weight of need And all my want for some nicotine