God Ain't Hear Me

i begged and i begged,he ain't answer once,so don't ask why i turned to the demons,fought all these demons,no help,no hand now i sleep wit hate and a blade in my pants, they quick to talk when i lose control but not one soul checked when i lost my soul,dead inside,i don't cry,i laugh,turned pain into power then split it in half,told them "I'm hurt", they said i'm too much now i hurt people first,i don't give no fucks, they judge me now but they ain't give a damn when i sat in the dark with blood on my hands, where was god when i prayed with tears? where was love when i drowned in fear?now I'm numb, I'm dead, I'm gone, don't ask why i turned heartless,yall took too long,yall only show up when i crash, when i bleed,not when i begged on my knees can't breathe,god ain't hear me,i know that now so i speak with violence not prayers or vows, Christian home but my heart chose sin,my halo rusted,let the darkness in,i hurt people cuz no one cared for mine now my love cut deep like a blade with crime,say i'm cold?i became what yall left turned every "i love you" into a threat,yall see the rage but never the roots,i was silent, dying now i just shoot,now i play demon,i fit that part since yall ain't care when i lost control,i ain't got faith, i got fire and flame,if god real then he forgot my name,so i walk with death and a steel face mask,praying ain't work so i went to the demons,now I'm numb, I'm dead, I'm gone, don't ask why i'm heartless,yall took too long,yall only show up when i crash, when i bleed but not when i begged on my knees,cant breathe,god ain't hear me,i know that now so i speak with violence, not prayers or vows, Christian home but my heart chose sin,my halo rusted,let the darkness in,so don't cry for me now,yall watched me break,now I'm everything yall feard and i don't give a fuck.