been a long time

It's been so long, I don't trust love; Broken and alone, my heart's had enough; Too much on my mind, had to adjust; ETB, guess I'm done, back writing rhymes; 2 a. m. painting songs, HPK, ′cause my heart's gone numb; Ghosted back then, the pain was long; I need love and affection, but how do I hold on? Counting the days, still moving on; Nobody wanna see us together; But it don't matter, no; Nobody gonna be forever; Why did you have to go? I'm losing my fight, losing my mind, but; I'll be alright, as long as I fight for you; It could've been us, gave you all my love; Now I find it hard to trust; Should've left feelings inside, but my heart just rushed; DTP for life, my heart got crushed; Saw both sides, realized I wasn't enough; Watched feelings die, heart flushed; Thought we were Bonnie and Clyde; Now I bottle paint, turn it into rhymes; When studio go through the numb; Afraid of change, can't explain; Put it all on a page of late chasing dreams; Phone on DND, don't act strange; Only 16 but my heart's in pain; Wish I never trusted love that was fake; Nobody wants yesterday either; But it don't matter, no; Nobody gonna be here forever; Why did you have to go? I'm losing my fight, losing my mind; But I'll, I'll be alright; As long as I fight for you; Nobody wanna see us together; But it don't matter, no;