Yeah, I tried to cut the cord, with a rusted-out knife

Yeah, I tried to cut the cord, with a rusted-out knife Thought if I could sever it, I could restart my life But this connection ain't a string, it's a root system deep Planted in the soil of the promises we couldn't keep I deleted your number, unfollowed your ghost But your spirit's a virus, a constant, unwanted host Every new face I see, a comparison I make To the memory of us, for goodness gracious sakes This isn't a breakup, it's a permanent scar A ghost in my rearview, no matter how far I drive down this lonely road, trying to find a new beat But every song on the radio sounds like a subtle defeat (Chorus) 'Cause what I feel for you, my love, ain't just your energy It's a part of my own soul, a piece of my identity I can't just detach, can't just let you go 'Cause I'm trying to pull away from myself, and we both know That's the one escape that I'll never find A mirror in my heart, a reflection of your mind (Verse 2) I'm a house haunted by a love that's long since passed With the doors locked tight, and the windows boarded fast But I can still hear the footsteps, can still see the light Of a life we could've had, burning in the night Maybe it's a punishment for the love I took for granted A lesson I'm learning, a seed that's been planted To remind me forever, of the one that got away The one I'm still tied to, until my dying day So I'll stop fighting the current, stop swimming upstream I'll live with this connection, this beautiful, terrible dream 'Cause the only way to be free, is to accept the past That the soul I'm trying to leave, is a part of me that's built to last.