Trust Issues

Why was I not expecting My own day one to run his mouth To try to wreck me I can’t believe it bro My heart turned heavy It’s like if I were walking And got hit with a semi I can’t control what people think It’s automatic A lot of people turn their backs And then they start smacking No wonder why it’s like A slug to the chest One moment they respect The next moment they reject Man, It’s kinda hard to make it out Find a way to escape So they don’t hate me now They don’t give a damn It’s like they’re acting dumber Then find the news About me being Six feet under But I cannot give up I got my nephews and nieces Because they always look up To me as a great example Of what they wanna be I’m crushed by the weight of the world It’s such an awful thing And I don’t wanna see The other one get beat By life and other people Younger me is what I see So kid, Keep your head up And never let it down And push through the rough times And get through the route I’ve been betrayed, Cheated on, And got my heart broken Enough to the point I felt no emotion All I want to have Is something better And a newer life Instead of being lonely Contemplating Suicide It’s hard to trust Other people Again Cuz I don’t wanna get my heart To the end Until I reach the end of myself And can’t lend Positive energy anymore I can’t send Gotta make myself win it I’m not a nobody being invisible I want to be A pro at something Instead of doomscrolling On my phone I’ll be running Not from my problems Got to face it And be loving