denial

my dealer’s on speed dial, Script in my pocket, but I’m fading in denial, Doc’s got the answers, I’m just chasing the high, Tell him all my symptoms, like I’m set to comply. Two years since she left, I’m still stuck in this haze, Memories haunt me, like ghosts in a maze, Every pill I swallow, it’s a temporary fix, But the pain’s still lurking, like a thief in the mix. Late nights in the dark, I’m just scrolling my phone, Reaching out for comfort, but I’m feeling so alone, Life’s a cruel joke, and I’m the punchline, Chasing all these shadows, lost track of the sunshine. Heart heavy with grief, and I’m drowning in thoughts, Searching for salvation in the battles I fought, Doctor knows my secrets, but he don’t see the tears, Just another prescription to numb all