pain

All my life all i have ever wanted is to be accepted and loved for who i am never was i just a ordinary cookie cutter basic kinda girl....personality and love for everyone is bigger then the whole entire world. Smile on my face ill bring the light to any dark place. first one to reach out my hand if you need somthing im the first one to offer my help anyway i can ...never have i judged anyone...were all just humans trying to make it anyway we can. vibrations so intense when i walk in i can be felt by everyone. my soul purpose is to help anyone i can so i reach out and offer my hand. Never great with making plans i just live daily doing whatever i can.... Smile on my face ill bring the light to any dark place. helping others get out of a dark place.... cause i know that place all to well cause ive been stuck in that very same hell. but i stay smiling so no one can tell. falling angel mabey but i still cant even save my own babies and i dont know why nothing is changing even tho i continue to try. feeling so much pain but i continue smiling just the same like everything is ok but its not so i push away all those horrible thoughts and take long walks.