God please help
Laying on the floor shaking cold sweating praying God please make this sickness pass quick Wishing I never started injecting these drugs im doing This life is hell and I regret every minute I'm wasting not living it Stomach cramps legs twitching can't stop the )thoughts of ending it all quick and be done with it fuck it I can't sleep or eat and every thing I do seems impossible to defeat. What happened to me I used to be strong not weak now I feel like a bitch with nothing working the streets for money like a fiend begging robbing and stealing I'm always paranoid thinking they watching me Had to find out the hard way nothing comes easy without consequences from these decisions I'm making for a drug thats not giving me nothing but grief for a drug that took my happiness and showed me no love it's fucking greedy and I still can't give it up ill work hard for a couple more hours of this bullshit high I'm so desperate to accomplish Feel like a Bum now don't care how far I go down this hole as long as this hole has drugs and I'm numb to all it's a go When's enough going to be enough how much more of myself am i gonna let go before I stop. Am I ever going to be the man I once was or am I this guy until I die God why am I so blind Sold my soul for a hit of dope please forgive me for loosing hope before I hang this rope and kick the chair out from underneath when I go. @ I never thought I would be addicted to something I couldn't quit. This shit really has a grip. I don't get it I need to end it. When I don't have it that's all I think about it consumes my every thought, every minute. I can't sleep, I won't eat. Nothing matters to me. Cold sweats stomach cramps legs steady twitching thoughts racing my whole body aching suicide is obvious why live like this. God please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. This misery is endless and im just going through the motions in a vessel thats useless as long as its addicted to heroin. The choices I have made are not the smartest but there mine none the less and they are mine to deal with. Keep being ignorant and ignoring the fact I exist im used to it. These demons are my friends and the devil is my boss. All hope seems like its lost and God is gone in my life. I'm alone and don't know where I'm going. I asked for forgiveness and begged for change and this is what was made my devilish ways are defined by your ignorance and judgment. You inspired this so why try to look past it embrace it and know I'm only here for a little bit. Survival is not only lucky but not likely as a heroine junkie only lives because someone was there to save them. But we don't stop using just because no ones here. So don't waste anymore time. If you love me you better spend time with me my times not promised.
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Laying on the floor shaking cold sweating praying God please make this sickness pass quick Wishing I never started injecting these drugs im doing This life is hell and I regret every minute I'm wasting not living it Stomach cramps legs twitching can't stop the )thoughts of ending it all quick and be done with it fuck it I can't sleep or eat and every thing I do seems impossible to defeat. What happened to me I used to be strong not weak now I feel like a bitch with nothing working the streets for money like a fiend begging robbing and stealing I'm always paranoid thinking they watching me Had to find out the hard way nothing comes easy without consequences from these decisions I'm making for a drug thats not giving me nothing but grief for a drug that took my happiness and showed me no love it's fucking greedy and I still can't give it up ill work hard for a couple more hours of this bullshit high I'm so desperate to accomplish Feel like a Bum now don't care how far I go down this hole as long as this hole has drugs and I'm numb to all it's a go When's enough going to be enough how much more of myself am i gonna let go before I stop. Am I ever going to be the man I once was or am I this guy until I die God why am I so blind Sold my soul for a hit of dope please forgive me for loosing hope before I hang this rope and kick the chair out from underneath when I go. @ I never thought I would be addicted to something I couldn't quit. This shit really has a grip. I don't get it I need to end it. When I don't have it that's all I think about it consumes my every thought, every minute. I can't sleep, I won't eat. Nothing matters to me. Cold sweats stomach cramps legs steady twitching thoughts racing my whole body aching suicide is obvious why live like this. God please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. This misery is endless and im just going through the motions in a vessel thats useless as long as its addicted to heroin. The choices I have made are not the smartest but there mine none the less and they are mine to deal with. Keep being ignorant and ignoring the fact I exist im used to it. These demons are my friends and the devil is my boss. All hope seems like its lost and God is gone in my life. I'm alone and don't know where I'm going. I asked for forgiveness and begged for change and this is what was made my devilish ways are defined by your ignorance and judgment. You inspired this so why try to look past it embrace it and know I'm only here for a little bit. Survival is not only lucky but not likely as a heroine junkie only lives because someone was there to save them. But we don't stop using just because no ones here. So don't waste anymore time. If you love me you better spend time with me my times not promised.
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