Panicking.....

Im going to be blazing the weed, because its amazing to me, they way it just feeds right into my mental you see? Wait! What was that rumble was it an earthquake? I think im in trouble, dont make a mistake when you hop on this note though, i hope you know its notable that you outta go because you make me mildly uncomfortable but its just another roll of the dice that you take but that was your mis-take thats why if i were you id vacate to somewhere far in the safari have someone take you in a car or oversea because i swear you wont get over me this boulder is over my shoulder the weight is making it ache, the reason that the pain stays is because the blame that i put on my plate the reason that i suffocate. I just want to be able to say that i can be placed with the greats and not with the monkeys or apes after the bananas i swear ill throw right em at ya, I am not done, ill be right back bruh..... This is for fun, but im not an actor. You say im a bum, but what about the facts huh? I can also say im not a rap star even if i rap hard i cant say that im laying down a legendary bar cus my legs can be hard too keep on track its bizarre how far my track is, but so far im attracting, good people and they know i stray from the evil and actresses, so be-little me i dont care. I dont come for the fame but i came to be noticed, im not a pick me bitch but note this, ive been picky on my homies and when it comes to love i say roll one for me cus this is painful, a handful of love for those who just want to fuck, and duck the responsibilities, and say fuck the possibilities of a real relationship so lately i just think save it bitch, but i cant take a hint, i keep pacing in my head, i do want someone in my life to chsnge the way i think for the good and see a future with.I know im young but im done, with all the dumb extra shit, my type of fun is to be done with the hype im about some dumb bitch, i want too actually see what it would be like to have a wife some day but maybe not... have a missing plot in my story, and as i grow older i feel alone or lonely, but i try to stay positive but its hard to stay that way... Every day is a struggle to smile, but all the while, i like to make people laugh out loud, i know im silly but im also really, in my thoughts deep, just longing, a time in life i dont have to have a bong to breath, and feel sanity.... a time when i finally stop panicking without weed, i just need another hit of the spliffy, too get mee lifted.... and i know weed isnt bad, but its a fill in for depression, when you dont have it, the demons get let in, making you stressed and then panick... Like "I know I had it, maybe another weed pen is in my jacket? All im saying is, im also an addict, and its a hard habbit to get out of, just like my other addiction, love, its like a sense of direction and when you have a partner theres no question to how much you care and love for them, i already go above and over, for my family, i just cant see, how these damn panzies, just cant keep, their damn hands clean! Its just a man cheating.. oops, thats actually, vise versa, all im saying is im hurt from, all the fake shit, so just take it and leave, im here for real only...