I'm sad

my life is just sad I'm mad at myself regretting every thing that ever happened with me and my dad im trying give molly the good childhood I never had i regret being in dad's flat on christ more like it pissedmis because dad was drunk he was calling us names like saying im a joke well dad all you do is smoke weed you didn't even feed us dad your not our dad that we need im feeling sadthat I don't have a good dad im mad tryna give you molly the good childhood I never had I remeber when you said you hate me when I was five that night I cried feeling like when you said that my head was in a bee hive and im just tryna thrive and dad your lucky your still alive im feeling sad that I don't have a good dad im mad tryna give molly the good childhood I never had