dead and gone

All day awake time wasting Up all night my mind racing My thoughts eating at me cause I'm facing actions in my past that had me chasing away my family and friends my life I was spacing to the very end I just wished they come visit me again I know they be proud to see that i am trying But how they gonna believe somebody thats never kept his word always lying tho there not the only ones hurting I was battling an addiction it changed my perception kicked to the curb I had to learn a tough life lesson (like a real man) I did the crime ill take the punishment Tho still i'm irrelevant I did my time(to my family and friends) Wish I could make it right cause it keeps me up all night. Ever since a youngin been hiding The depression and anxiety Use to look at each day excited But these demons are living in my head univited Living rent free taking up space left a dent its troubling But i gotta bite the bullet bottle up my emotions leave them rumbling Learn how to control it don't neglect myself from being happy otherwise i will hate myself learn whats truly sentimental for the heart Cuz few have walk in my shoes If they did they be less judgemental We all live with are own issues mine just saw the light of day urs stay in the dark So don't judge me no matter how long the record may seem No ones perfect so just maybe can't we all just get along We all have something in common One day will all end up dead and gone