Even When I Lose, I Win

You were the one who always put me down/ When I was the first one/ Who lifted you UP off the fucken ground/ Always put them first/ But where them same friends now/ I bet they don’t come around/ You look like a fucken clown They say it’s 2 sides to a story/ But still only one truth/ I felt you robbed me of my Innocence/ You robbed me of my youth/ I had to grow up fast/ Just by dealing with you/ I kept it real with you/ You would lie about 2+2/ Anything that you wanted/ I was always down to do/ Always wanted to see you smile/ Cause that’s what real ones do/ But the devil is a lie/ Praying on my down fall/ While I was praying for you to fly/ You know how many times I thought about a eye for eye/ You know how many times I held my face down to cry/ You know how many times I just wanted to die/ If love wasnt real HERE /maybe it’s real up in the sky / You made pain feel NATURAL / My only question is why/You was the one who told me/ Always keep it real/ The same person who told me/ Always act how I feel/ Now the way it’s playing out/ That shit brings me chills / It’s a cold ass world/ You really showed your skills/ I guess you only viewed me/ Only as your thrill/ They say with time/ Pain will always heal /Hopefully in time/ More won’t be revealed/ I can let the song cry like Jay Z said / Can’t play them same keys like Alicia Keys did / I gotta walk away & find my peace instead/ I gotta do it for me/ Never do it for you, although it took me years/ I finally get the clue/ Could’ve thought we were meant/ From the pretty picture you drew/ I thought like sweet tea we were meant to brew/ Grew a beautiful garden/ Until you used me as your tool/ I guess I was your stepping stone/ You used as a stool/ You took me for a fool/ The shit you did was cruel/ Ill walk the earth alone before I ever give love to you/ I was sent to heal you/ Now I gotta heal from you / I promise you could never walk in my fucken shoes / I promise/ you lucky/ you didn’t end up on the news/ Now I’m Im left dodging all the bullets that you threw/ Funny how I thought by this time we would’ve grew/ But I’m still thankful for my Baby Blu/ It’s still crazy how you used make me drool / I guess back then the mask you wore/ I thought was cool / Left to drown/ You was who threw me in the pool/ I can’t believe I once saw you as my muse But still I can be myself/ You MORE like somebody else/ I can close my eyes knowing I’m proud of myself/ I kept it real/ You kept it real fake/ said I would never be famous/ Guess you were mad at my fate/ You brought mad hate/ You brought mad tears/ Always tried to judge me/ Played on my fears/ I thought you were my protection/ You were more the weapon/ Got so bad my Angels had to step in/ Thanking the lord cause I guess this was for testing/ Us not being together for me it was a blessing