Neurodivergent

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Verse 1 This Midwest shit was something to die for, growing up I always had something to cry for. The symbolic , diabolical roots that my family forced me to grow up in. Sometimes I wish I was never born, sometimes I wish my dad got his shit clipped. But instead here I am today fighting 6 mental illnesses that I never asked for. They told me to pray, find a hobby but all I got is this poetry and this rap shit. Forgive me for my sins they fluctuate, slicing and dicing my wrist hoping the pain goes away. Go to therapy manic. For what so they can tell me , to use bullshit mindfulness exercises , practice deep breathing so I can make all these intrusive thoughts and mood swings disappear. Fuck them they’ll never understand , I lack dopamine , I lack empathy when I split sometimes I lash and push my loved ones away. I hope to be a better man but the devils got ahold of me I was born with this evil brain , so tell me how the fuck are you going to reprogram my brain. Verse 2 I’m a lost cause , I improvise , sometimes I think of suicide . I was always scared to die. But as the times go by, it’s all that comes to mind. The only reason I stay is because I’m afraid to die and I love my girl, so I fight to stay each and every day to undergo nothing but pain and suffering. When’s my chance to find happiness. I live in nothing but misery I’m at war with my amygdala and my vagus nerve. Doctors told me there’s no cure I’m stuck with bpd, ocd , autism, c-ptsd , adhd, anxiety for life. Verse 3 I tried to fit in but my label is neurodivergent, atypical, I will never be a divergent individual. There’s no fixing me. That’s why I don’t believe in god. Why would I believe in a god that brings so much pain, why would I believe in a god that lets the perpetrators go away. God isn’t god, he’s wiping the planet and doing the devils work. Purgatory is a myth there’s only amount of time before our flesh disintegrates, until we perish #CodeBreakers #CBC @rapfame_official @rapfame_ar_team #neurodivergent #bpd #anxiety #autism #ocd #cptsd #depression #emo #therapy #dysfunction

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