Rainy days V2

I've been dealing with some rainy days all i want is the pain away when i want tha pain away i grab a blade and bleed away i don't know what im doing ain't afraid to die been to hell and back seen the devil's eyes looked em straight in tha eye up all night seein' things that aren't there why the demons come out at night feel like I'm floating in tha air not alright I'm aware going fast but going nowhere poping afixer life dont feel real right now I'm not in the picture living like a rolling stone surround by people but still alone right now the futures fucking unkown will i die this year i don't know am i psychotic, thats what i fear I'm not ok, thats what i hear i hope i don't relapse, cuz thats my biggest fear i anit on that fentanyl why you'd think that dude, what's wrong with y'all pills is all i want that Adrial gettin' high, bounce of the wall but sometimes it don't work at all take it up a notch, do some more, do some shrooms then I'll be the highest motherfucker in this room did i just construct my doom maybe tripping, but im not trying to take a fall don't wanna crash and burn and hit that wall thinking I'm on a shore but in reality im on the fucking floor if you cut yourself than cut me too god delt me wrong but im alive to sing this song not much longer i assume passed out on the floor in my room am i alive right now or am i doomed lord knows, that pain i cant consume will slowly kill me 6 feet under in a toom all cuz... your the highest motherfucker in the room told the doc i need that oxy i need that cotton make this pain feel forgotten i see wolfs in the darkness blackout to darkness on the floor when i wake up i don't wanna do this no more can't stay away from a fucking blade brains starting to fucking fade sometimes I cut my self to see how much it bleeds cuz I've been dealing with some rainy days when it rains it pours just look at my wrist devil got hold of my soul dark days, dark nights fear em tragic endings fight or fight if one dies your actually killing more Domino effect soul's already dead like a shipwreck feel like a zombie, walking dead