1989-2025

1989 was the year I came, 2025 is the year I blame, Never had a chance, fucked up parents and a fucked up family, no loyalty, no love or no compassion, I had to fashion myself in a way, that masked all the hurt I faced, on a daily never went away, in the beginning it was just My father giving me a kicking, some bullshit reason of why I didn’t listen, but later on what I wouldn’t trade for that when i found out my mother traded me for another brat, best friend I trusted, my mom fucking lusted, the streets were talking so I had to tough it, fighting for my mothers honour while sleeping in flat block stairs so she could fuck her partner , is this reality, A nightmare but I have to tell ya, I might be a fucked up man, I tried hard but my blueprints were covered in crap, My crackhead uncle got me beating folks up for money, thought I was king, getting used like a dummy, it’s all scummy when I think about the past, I made myself a future now it didn’t last, it’s bound to pass like another chapter in this shit, welcome to the life of me congratulations you ain’t me Cocaine and weed had my mind at ease, for a moment till I fucking had a time to breathe, Do you believe that abuse can ever really go away, when your mental scars are ripping open everyday, it’s such a tragedy the years of agony, it had to last on me, I’ve tried over and over to better but at last you see, damage is done, completely broken here’s to hoping, now get this the gut punch through all this I was autistic