I Am Legend

I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder back in December 2015. According to the doctors the closest they come to understanding the illness is our brain has chemical imbalance which causes the symptoms. Though how about the delusions? Especially the religious ones! The ones I get are fucking nuts. Then the doctors say it could just be our mind playing games with us! Though how about our experience? Then the doctors say just know what I'm experiencing is fake to them. I just hallucinated on how fucked up of a person I am. I harass myself for hours to days to feel that real people or deities are talking to me. The doctors are not 100% and neither am I. Interesting!