Forgiveness (a poem)

forgiveness is what i must do in order to move on how can i forgive if I'm still hurting the pain seem like it lasts forever day by day never going away even when I still loved you all I can do is pray how can I forgive you when you don't care care that's an interesting topic no phone calls, not hearing your voice, not knowing where you are are who you with you can't care you never did it's just not in you that's why I'm not mad fighting your own demons I'm not your judge God said he got me I'm listening to him my heart is so cold n#ggas say I'm a cold ass b**** some say I'm just like ice they smoke me to kill their pain my heart bleeding oozing from hurt my body in a trance you will never see me like this never, so i isolate myself no family, no friends, no you never thought my life would end up like this long nights I cry most of days just float by reminiscing on the good times but it seems the bad times is all I can remember blood running down my hand did I just murder you I lost the only person that loved me forreal it was you for me at one time you was all i could see