all I've got

im so bord sitting around here waiting to die once apon a time i would of been out of my mind i liked to get high i was off my face most of my life i hated my wife i hated the days but i love the nights i needed to change my ways i couldnt see my future i was going blind i was mean and now im trying to be kind i didnt want to live but i new i had responsibilitys and there was so many possibilities i needed to keep my dignity i couldnt sit still with this adhd so fidgety i just had to find me so i took a look deep inside see all the way down to my spine it was time i nearly died nine times with no reprieve i havnt got time for this deceit i was at a cross roads there was no way i was going to admit defeat i couldnt just sit there time to stand up on my feet i gave up everything i starting thinking i hate drinking i hate smoking no more toking no more coking im not joking im trying live longer gave up eating meat became a fish monger no more animal products no more bongs i had enough lifes tough its not the time to give up i give a fuck i have never been the kind to pass the buck i have no luck for a while there i was stuck couldnt write i used to cry myself to sleep at night and i think im starting to lose my eyesight i needglasses now just to reed is it age thats effecting me i do know one thing im looking right in front of me my eyes are wide open and i can finally see the future so i got myself a uber see where it would take me got there lokked in the mirror finally it was me lokking right back at me and relised thats all i need my dog and me in my mind now im finally free ijust want to be me i want everyone to see the real me i found god i eat right no more on the nod shed my skin i feel hot and thats all ive got