Tear It All Down

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Sitting alone again in this room, something triggered my darkness and gloom. so, I pull away from everyone and stare into space. I'm Remembering all my choices that led me to this place. And I feel guilt for not feeling guilty, When I know I've done everyone shitty. It was time to save me, so I had to tear it all down. And now I sit by myself with no one else around. Why don't I miss it? All of the shit. The house and money, job and family; None of it seems to be what I need. Feeling as if I am once removed . The shadows continued to grow, And with time, I felt their weight on my soul. And I feel guilt for not feeling guilty, When I know I've done everyone shitty. It was time to save me, so i had to tear it all down. And now I sit by myself with no one else around. Am I this worker, this mother, this wife? Or am I something else, faking this life? A deeper me watches the emotions come and go, With mild curiosity as they change and ebb and flow. Do I really care if I cease to exist? What's in this life to convince me to persist? "What are your goals? What's your 5 year plan?" It's these questions that I just can't stand. I don't have any answers to give to the man. To eat, fuck, love, hurt, listen & learn. These are the only desires for which I yearn. I say I hate change, but more than that I hate when it stays the same. I feel guilt for not feeling guilty, When I know I've done everyone shitty. It was time to save me, so i had to tear it all down. And now I sit by myself with no one else around. I need you to challenge me, surprise me. Show me you really live this life, Show me how you overcome strife. But whatever you do, don't stand still. My mind craves too much against my will. I want everything, I want nothing at all. I want to see how far I can fall Before I build it back up and stand tall. I do it for the joy it brings and For the grief it makes me sing. I do it to feel all of me, all of him, all of her. I do it because it makes my heart stir. Beating wildly, only then to stop And all my illuions seem to drop. I see clearly it's not you and me, We're just pieces of the bigger WE. And as I retreat inside myself, I don't need anyone's help. In the end we'll all be okay, No matter what happens each day. So let me be quiet, I don't want to fight. I love you for you and all you do, But I love me too. I feel guilt for not feeling guilty, When I know I've done everyone shitty. It was time to save me, so i had to tear it all down. And now I sit by myself with no one else around.

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