a long time coming

its been a long time a long time coming / I can't find the words but the words keep rushing / tired of feeling like I'm feeling nothing / I done lost so much it's hard to hold on to something/ ----------------------------------- it's been a long long time now coming tired feeling nothing just want to have something what's it like to feel comfort? feeling like I'm done for chilling in the back of a contour looking for ah encore a piece of land and a piece of mine is what I long for everyday I'm feeling off what the fuck am I on for? Lost for words thats never unheard I'm bored too many people treat love just like a chore when I disappear they wanna hear why I was gone for tired of going up to the wrong door why you think I write these fucking songs for? even if I hit the fucking wrong chord disappointment is ongoing thinking it won't be long for sure I've been gone way long before I absorb too much on my own retort wish I had my own resort cuz then I will resort to report all these things in my mind that wants to afford I want to abort resorts to report but of course there's no remorse for the course order in the Court who's to say has the final word its absurd and yes it's a blur when you think about life when you're feeling deferred excuse me if I look a little bit perrtturd back to the sender that's if it's returned fake friends want to watch you crash and burn to the point of no return no stress reserved more mess preserved will it ever occur the whole world is a curse what a universe but then there's Earth where humans lurk is it worth being if being is more than lessons learned or the message heard soul confession search sit upon a pedestal and perch manifested in vessels that all yearn feeling restless but some May fall short always lived way outside of the norm even been called a dork but all the more to all the sorts I emerge from all the hurt regroup and retort chlorophyll and chloroform go berserk look at me I go be jerk how would it be if I knew where the old me were I don't need no one to show me worth or owe me nurn just let it be and let me be smoking on this OG Smurf okey durk see me on the Low-key with ah Smirk just let me cook and let me work ______________________ its been a long time a long time coming / I can't find the words but the words keep rushing / tired of feeling like I'm feeling nothing / I done lost so much it's hard to hold on to something/ ------------------------------ the words keep rushing and im feeling like I'm busting up out the frame but my soul it keep clutching emotions corroded I never trust stairs because theyre always up to something tired of having much of nothing steadily fighting redundant every assumption thats coming below above it hocus pocus gotta focus in on the ruckus who is the sheep? who is the puppets? wheres the truth or how far away are we all from it the closer you get the sicker you will feel in ya stomach the son of man shall cometh so for thy sins they shall all be punished now all thee public rebuttal in all Republic demo crafting crats pushin and shovin is shown with unknown luggage how far for one to publish thuggish ruggish the news is always sluggish what- is what -if fug-get 2 tears in ah buc-ket all my fears disappeared many years ago with months- in that outweighed every day i awo-ken this is what I'm speaking this is not what I spo-ken im down like 4 flats still be roll-in when i go- in -------------------------------------- its been a long time a long time coming I can't find the words but the words keep rushing tired of feeling like I'm feeling nothing I done lost so much it's hard to hold on to something ------------------------------