8 months left

its captivating how people would do you love you but really only use you i could see it coming and you could to but I knew first time that youl looked me in my eyes and told me a lie that I can never trust you again and you were mpy best friend it seems like I'm going to have to love you from a distance somethings gotta give or I'm going to have to end this im serious my heart cant take anymore I'm about to be knocking on heavens door going to go out with a Kurt Cobain bullet straight to my ending I can't keep pretending going to prescribe to God and ask him to end it the pressure building is enough to blow off this houses ceiling please stand back there's too much animosity going on for me to have feelings baby I'm just too real for so many b****** that ain't real I call you a thief because my heart you still but i keep giving in when will I ever win we live in dedicated sin Will the heart ache in life ever end to see you with another man is sickening this is the last time that I'll ever be given in standing on the sidelines of my life just peeking in and I don't have much time left at least that's what the doctor said so go ahead and close the door before the cold comes in swimming in deep water on the top of that I can see the sharks fins I try to make amends with everything around me but everything around me still so cloudy everything you love never had nothing to do about me I'm so sick of all the fight and screaming and shouting and you say love is on the break well I think it just broke so sit back roll a blunt and take another toke