I let you go

I'm so sorry for the trauma that I caused you I'm so sorry for the money that It cost you Just to be with me, so embarrassing all you wanted was to love and support me, should've just ignored me, but the moment whrn we looked into eachother eyes, I saw a light, saw your beauy, I was memorized, you were so adorable and sexy at the same time, it blew my mind,  called you beautiful a dozen times, was the best night of my life  it makes me so confused, so why did I inflict so much abuse, why did I get drunk and try to trap you, there is no excuse, why did I manipulate you with my Suicidal tendencies, I'm so sorry for these painful memories, really don't know what was wrong with me, you were my soul, my home, my heart, you were everything to me, I promise you were everything to me when I broke down, you were there, when I told you that my brother died, you didn't hesitate to stop what your doin just to come and get  me, then you found me on the ground outside of work, breaking down, you picked me up, then I cried upon your shoulder, then you drove me all the way to Tulsa just to grieve with my brothers, still the biggest sweetheart that iver met (wish you knew how much that meant to me) I'm not praying on your sympathies or begging for forgivness, you don' even need to listen, I'm just sorry that I turned our dream into a nightmare, I'm just here to make ammends, tell you that I understand, I'm taking full accountability, and I'm here to tell you that I love you one last time, I'm so sorry for the pain I caused you, I'm so sorry that I lost you. I'm so sorry this is goodbye I love you Sam, please be safe. youre gonna great fucking things. you'll always be in my heart. no matter what. Goodbye Beautiful.