Tryna cope wit all dis stress drinkin Smokin Hopin I’m depressed prayin dat this pain will b layed to rest Watch yu know abt Havin rage n that’s the shii that keeps yu alive everyday Then they say the rage keeps the pain hidden Shii maybe the past better off forgetting Ye I’m hurt But today I feel strong enough to make it work The fact I’m goin crazy is makin me go berserk Ye I’ve cried so many tears I cant feel pain If I get locked up probably better than stayin Because my buzz is gettin worse Might lean to the lean n find sum Percs Shii Watchu know about being 5 years old gettin Told Supervised visits Trina pretend that my life Wasn’t cold That’s why I fuckin act out give the crowd the crown So they chant my name loud I always wanted family I just want People to understand me I’m gettin tired of this life thing Shii sucide finna be stuck in my brain the pain is insane Constant game that’s replayed everyday til We pass away Ye I’ve been down that road it’s long way Don’t go far it’s long ways Til the people see the real yu a fighter With a mentally to kill you This the real me the empty living full of envy Every paper shredded full of infantry Stay on protocol because if I call the dogs Yo Been a lot weighin on my mind lately Today it’s seems no means to use Music to get through To you Yo I’m broken in side My comfortably is my ability to lie Ay the struggle of my life pint Up aggression ready to fight Spark the bong get ready to light Only thing I’m seein is red tonight Ye Watch yu know bout Bein trialed at 16 Gettin takin out school In cuffs only thing embarrassing Is the pig reacht for his gun Watch know bout Left in cell wit no bail 3 hours feel like days n hell in ur Mental state failed all the pain jus replays Makes you think of the days when everything Was okay Ye remember when we’re kids everything wit a bright Future now I’m on probation until 18 slowly breakin Never mistaken the words I say the old me would slap the new me For be comin who I wasn’t I didn’t wanna End up like this Smokin everyday to fade the pain to jus say anything To anyone don’t talk Bout ur feelings them fake friends take them Act like they care then at ur lowest moment Yu in dispare the say say prayer get my boy Free then when I’m back for week Everyone actin different to me Shii Your mom walkin to see her son inna cell Cuffed lookin down because i let everyone I lived down cuz I failed Ye man I’m hurt an I don’t admit that shii Nobody ever care so wuts the point Of therapist when I pissed I’ll Switch go at the bitch who snitched Ye Watchu know bout Settin In court getting bond then slowly losing support Sometimes i write a line get in my mind From time to time Hate myself this normal right Normal way of life Normal way to cry shii I remember tears dripping down my face couldn’t yell Felt stuck in place Inner self enterin the space Shii adrenaline pumping craze Crazy perspective body torn down Wreckin interest in Bein in a vest I impress the press to digest the rest My rhymes causes sucide a lucid kind Intrusive mind loosened shot got popped