Tonight

yo I wonder why I even around I wonder why im not the one buried I'm the ground I don't even know who I am how can I keep going if I only see the end I got a shadow following me it's taking hold of me I just wanna break free but I feel like no one wants me to be me I dream of the pain of my past going away of starting again another day if only you could feel my weight I just seem to iritate the people in my life the one I want to be my wife my head is stuck in a vice and I'm just dreaming of paradise I dunno why I am the way I am but I know I want you as my only friend right until the end but I just seem to depend into depression again and again it's a repeating trend and I just want it to end I wish I could be the man the man you want of me I wish you could see who I used to be and how much I've changed I've learned to love myself as I am even though I'm changing again and again just trying to be a better man he'll I don't even know when this depression began it's been a part of me since before I wast thirteen maybe it's part of my genes maybe it's what happened to me shit my own family doesn't even want to believe me I'm trying to be strong but I let how I feel out in these songs it's how I get by when I just want to die and I feel like there's a chance it might help somone get by but when your here by my side I actually feel alright I dunno if I'm gonna sleep tonight cause baby im just over these feelings inside and the reasons we fight