pain

every time I turn around... here come pain coming around... love pack up flees the town... life was up but life shutdown... every time I'm up here you tear me down.... my humble apologies I ain't so easy to breakdown... look at me and see a look at shame... your heart aches and pain I'm the blame... my selfishness cause me to stray... drink after drink kept me away... drowning in a pity trying to persuade myself I'm okay... I'm num no morphine... I'm hyped no cocaine I'm drained... from holding my head high trying to maintain... I can't lie so much pain I carry inside... I'm a man I don't need help when when I do... like I'm going somewhere nowhere to go... failure grow my spine becomes weak... in my head that devil speaks... what's the point of you living you all alone... here with me the path you was shown... nobody loves a failure... a no good for nothing nigga... go ahead keep sipping that liquor... misery painting a perfect picture... I'm it's me a sheet and a balcony... as I look up in tears... please for give me... knees tremble in fear... to the edge I creep... I'm drained depleted... phone rings... normally my feet would spring... but my legs I can barely move... phone call gets ignored... as my tears begins to pour... phone rings again as I vision my blood on the concrete... as I answer a sweet voice speaks... hey Daddy what you doing... hey baby hoping she don't hear me... weeping as I speak... oh nothing was sleep... as I climb back over the rail... color comes back to my pale face... hold on I got a beep... put the phone on mute... as I weep from sorrow... somebody do loves me... and it's more than just she... my eyes open I can see... my five kids smiling at me... and they love me... as I fall to my knees screaming forgive me...