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But I fuck them all! I have to remember how I's stucked before Everyday and everywhere... And every night the same shit! That's tournament with fucking drugs I think It'll never go to the end... The dark side where am I? Where am I? Just's taking me from dusk Till down and every night Especially when I wake up I feel the horror in my life ... I need some new to do,to make And money,luck,new friends, Some careless and to be stucked in love... But I have nothing now Especially that night... I feel me tired and so bored, Because I'm very unsatisfied! I need some talk, some real feelings And maybe little cup of dope, But only to continue my crazy little world! Right now, right now I need some help, I need some real friends A little bit of luck or love Just to be a little lucky girl I want come back to real life And not only to be satisfied... I can to do the better things for my life! But how I should to do? And where directly or why? I don't know anything about the future Time... I'm disappointed too much in my life... I don't know how to do correct and Where maybe start or stop... But I'll try and make a lot... I know, that it's difficult to stay alone, But I believe to nobody in this town! And I don't need to weep or cry. My tears've already been dryed... I've seen a lot of worst things And too much bad exertions among The past time in my life... It's difficult to hold the line,but I'm trying! I'm not sure about my mind... I am too small against the whole world, But at this time of my life, I need to hold the line and every time! I try to be so strong! Just fuck them all tonight! I am a powergirl against the whole world! And it's real story of my life... For one time,it'll be better and I know! And that's the reason of this song. But I need somebody to support Me, little girl, especially at night! But now I have just nothing in my life. I am tired from this darkness And I want to start new life... I'm strong enough but now I'm tired. I need someone who can Support my broken soul And somebody,who needs me so. I dream for best one in my Future Life... I don't need to much, just Something fresh from that all! But now you know that: Nothing more believe in oh yeah,and Nothing I supposed to... Nobody, nowhere...oh... yeah... I wanted to kill myself but not today when you've left me home alone without any cup of money,without any chance for dope... I was really expired... And now I am not trying to get the coke, Because I don't need it, Just I don't want to get this Fucking crazy marathon again Where I can win or do nowhere! Only the aggressor stays inside myself! And I don't think that it's for me the best Way, because I'm sure that I can work and live without that Dirty and expensive sort of relaxation With someone else or go somewhere. no power, no energy,no money... I had no thoughts in my mind. For one time I've been feeling, Like I was almost not more there, However,in some different world, And I don't know where. But I was wondering, when I woke up,oh my god! It was some really good, Amazing time and maybe also My little Life must change The way I do it everyday For example,to get some careful luck, But maybe more... I don't know where but it seems The next week,or next day It should be better! I'm going to change location yeah! I will not more hearing from my mama Any additional confines, Restrictions or any prohibition in my life. I am big enough to be able do I want! It was for for four or five weeks ago But I remember every second when you Left me just alone, without no more. I was dying cuz I was crying so much, But it was nobody with me! My money finished, like my friends. And therefore,I was feeling me so bad. So f****** bad... I thought at first moment: I don't want to live, it would be better If I've been already dead... I try to sleep, I wanted so much but My depression didn't want to go,or to Leave me completely alone... My happiness,I was asleep And I didn't hear how you call me... I was sleeping like a little baby... And that time when I was waking up, It's was feeling strong enough inside Myself,a lot of strength and Acceleration almost inside My mind, just everywhere... There was something,like Engine and racing game inside myself. A horse power,or maybe motivation!? I don't know but I was happy too much I was so much weak, but I've survived. I don't know how,but something So strong Just struck me as odd, that's all. exact medical just forget about it ... once upon a time,or somewhere... I gonna hate,hate,hate and throw away you gonna nothing get from me by this fucking cold and rainy day just everybody, everyway, and without any additional fun,or questions, because my life is not your game!!! I gonna push away, like a dust,dirt,grime, all the fucking idiots from my life,like in a pocker club by the playing,by this weekend... everything,and everyone who wants to cross my line,my way and my new and independent delights,my creative area it was Shit enough...in my life and by that time...by the way! come on! the inlet's already closed,let's close the gate!!! it's my game,by the way! No more money left,no more lend, no more loans I gonna be foremost another way,it seems to be foreclosure🤐 The fucking drugs&debts just turn me on... It's not so simply to pay your dues when you are still indebted for some things I need to get my money back i need a right solution and the best conclusion For a starting point For New country & my new life my new dreams for future in my mind, everytime... they are still alive...