Always feeling like a satellite,

Always feeling like a satellite, caught in low earth orbit, just keep going round an round. never coming down, that's them drugs talking now or is just I'm feeling sad tonight? So alone, falling, never coming down like a satellite flowing with ocean current frequency hurtz low vibration is a lack of watts feeling static kinda , erratic, reacting automatics Wondering why i'm so bad at it?I'm trying to find the thing to grind. blind listening in a bind.Noone to find more alone than the word alone are the only words I could find.might cuz I'm always feeling like caught in low earth orbit never coming down stuck just going round an round yelling out, waiting for sound of my echo never get the reply feel like all my emotions just die an not even ask why not even say goodbye stuck like or am I just sad tonight but this is every night never see the light unless it's flick on by me artificially only loose sight when I loose my lighter getting delayed to get high I tend to loose left an i right or right an left like a theft but only feel when I'm high tend to go left soon as inhaled I left always methin up my life like I need a reset but I just resent smoke to feel at rest wonder why y I can't be that 9 -5 every 5 some time 6 but I'm stuck like a satellite going round an round stuck in low earth orbit cant afford it won't adore it just go an sore it. my mind caught in low earth orbit feels like falling to never hit the ground going around an round like a satellite or am i just sad tonight.