I'm trying to pick mys,elf

I'm trying to pick mys,elf up off the floor because I fell again stand tall dusting myself off whatever is relevant put it off on the back burner just for the hell of it my family all very disappointed in me well im missed im not around me im dwelling in the trenches and if I choose I will not be found I'm trying to make some sense of this i wasted a turnaround I need it more than anything p, asking God can you help me out to become the best version of myself finding a way out kingdom come if awaits I need some sobriety I've been searching for what tim trying to find me th c. guy that leads it's sink or swi i need you right by side for the rest of my life i need you right by my side until the day that we die I need you like I want to make you my wife you never scream when you fight great minds think just alike and u fine if its feeling right 100th time and i pay the price cuz your mind wrong i made it right this is Right where you belong so baby I'll stay there night cuz I want to hit it like twice my heart is colder than ice you wore me up by a fire I tell you this is my life real rappin i batter mic domestically violence fight I have to swallow my pride my these bars I spit the excite , your a fan and you think I'm nice when I put that ring on your hand I'm your one and your only man solely I will love you baby until the very end o