What I Thought Was Mine

my brain is flooded there go all my memories nobody remembers me let it be ill let it bleed nothing left inside of me an empty scene an empty me empty thoughts empty dreams woke up, 20 years later all fuxkin spun , what have i done what have i become is this really me ? lookin in the mirror who this person that i see? lookin all around and its all a lie , lookin like i found what i thought was mine i know they hate me now cuz they thought i died and they saw i was alive.. . suprise ,!, i aint dead yet a whole lotta shit that i aint said yet stress on my head gets pressure from less rest compressed the rest of this dead shit endless and its done with no friends with no blendin to blend in with like a near miss it dont make no sense if u nearly missed it then u hit it but didnt ? doesnt matter whos winnin if u lost if u at the top sinnin and u kno it cost to be the boss get it with it or get lost step up or stepped on head gone or dead wrong never been right either never did i let off the get off set off the reciever